What Does It Mean For Life To Be Straight?

One often hears about the "straight and narrow." These trees are straight and narrow, yet they are all over the place. Today's thoughts are, of course, about my back. Was I really born with this syrinx or did it recently happen? Can I ever visit a chiropractor again? Can I make myself sit up straight in a chair? The physical therapist seems to think this is quite essential. The lumbar pillow I have is driving me nutty at work. I can't get used it it. Driving with it isn't too bad, but sitting at my desk all day with it at work is a challenge.

And then there is the important question. If I do all these things: the physical therapy, the medication, the posture stuff, etc., will these bizarre sensations ever stop? Will I ever be free of the anxiety that I'm going to have crazy muscle spasms?

I'm thinking that there is a lot to these things going on with me. Maybe I'll never know the answer. Maybe I'm not supposed to know the answer. Instead, I'll look to the design of these trees and reflect upon the very real possibility that I may have to just trust that everything will be okay. The situation with my body may never fully straighten out.

This Tree Understands Nerve Pain

This tree understands nerve pain.

This fence understand my syrinx.

This tree understands the fear of losing use of limbs.

This tree understands the fear and reality of use of everything above the neck.

These leaves understand how to help a friend who is turned upside down.

This tree understands what it is to hurt but to survive the slicing, cutting pain

This can understands what it feels like to be utterly crushed.

I took a walk in my neighborhood today. There are too many pictures to share on this single blog post but I do think that looking for understanding all around us is an important lesson of spinal issues. Look closeby for answers.

This picture was taken while in my car today after dropping off and weighing some letters at the post office. I did not Photoshop it.

Peace and hugs,

Jen